Hello 2018! Am I too late for this?

I've written a lengthy new year post a few days before the year 2017 ends just to save it as a draft and decided not to post it. *insert awkward chuckles here* I know, you might say I'm probably dead for not posting anything for ages after telling you that I'll be frequently updating this blog. I'm alive as I can be and yes, I am definitely moving on from 2017 - my worst and best year. Let me take something from that "draft" that I've written. It's this:

"I took too many miscalculated risks yet I've been blessed with more than what I deserve."

Talking about 2017: That line definitely sums it up. I am blessed beyond my expectations despite my too naive choices and untimely decisions. There will always be people who would choose to stay behind and let you go. In my case, some stayed in 2017. I learned to take things as they are and trust my Father in Heaven that He is there to help me at any time I needed help. He did, He still does and He will help me. I know that and I have been so blessed to know that. Now, I hope you have that trust in Him, too.

So, 2018? I am ready! It's never too late to start a new year right. Well, I am starting mine in March, sooooo, hahahhaha. January and February was a Trial/Warm-up. March is the real thing. LOL. 

As much as I wish that I am back in my home in the Philippines, enjoying the company of my family and spontaneous visits of my friends, playing random nonsense games and just laughing at everything we talk about, I need to wake up and save up because I'm definitely coming home again this year. 

I started late, but I'll make sure that the two months of warm-up was enough to keep me back on track. 

Hope you are having a great day!

xx

Twinks

P.S Oops! Did I tell you I cut my hair? 

P.P.S By the time that you see this scheduled post, it's probably two inches longer. LOL

How do you know?

How do you know when you’ve already moved on?

It has been 255 days since we last saw each other, to be exact. 255 days later and I still think about him but not in the way that I used to when it was just a week after we’ve seen each other. I used to pray for him everyday, pray if he was the one that was made for me forever, and I had very good answers from those prayers only to find that it was a different prayer that has been given great answers. Of course I felt bad knowing that he was not for me, but what really made me feel even worse was when I find out more about his past (that he didn't tell me about which I think, I deserved to know).

It did hurt and I don’t know how to describe that emptiness that filled my heart when I found about his past and his present. I asked myself: “Why am I hurting? If I really love him, I would accept him no matter how bad his flaws are” and I don’t know what to answer. It did hurt…it hurt like hell or even more than hell that it made me (who loves food and more food) stopped eating for a few days that even my family asked if I am on a diet. It was a bad time in my life, I even wished to just unlove him but I don’t know how…and I still can’t resist checking his profile and his new girl’s profile just to check on him if he’s alright without me (but of course he is!!!). [**note: this paragraph pertains to my feelings along time ago]

So, really, how do you know when you’ve already moved on?