How
do you know when you’ve already moved on?
It has been 255 days since we last saw each
other, to be exact. 255 days later and I still think about him but not in the
way that I used to when it was just a week after we’ve seen each other. I used
to pray for him everyday, pray if he was the one that was made for me
forever, and I had very good answers from those prayers only to find that it
was a different prayer that has been given great answers. Of course I felt bad
knowing that he was not for me, but what really made me feel even worse was
when I find out more about his past (that he didn't tell me about which I think, I deserved to know).
It did hurt and I don’t know how to
describe that emptiness that filled my heart when I found about his past and
his present. I asked myself: “Why am I hurting? If I really love him, I would
accept him no matter how bad his flaws are” and I don’t know what to answer. It
did hurt…it hurt like hell or even more than hell that it made me (who loves
food and more food) stopped eating for a few days that even my family asked if
I am on a diet. It was a bad time in my life, I even wished to just unlove him
but I don’t know how…and I still can’t resist checking his profile and his new
girl’s profile just to check on him if he’s alright without me (but of course
he is!!!). [**note: this paragraph pertains to my feelings along time ago]
So, really, how do you know when you’ve
already moved on?
